week 3: it, once again, is that damn phone

1/23/2026

i need to redelete all socials off my phone. i redownload youtube every now and then if i'm too far away from my ipad or laptop– which i feel like defeats the entire purpose of having deleted it in the first place! the next thing i'll need to delete is pi.fyi. as much as i love that app, i will stick to using the desktop version because i started doomscrolling on it and i don't want to keep doing that to myself. i genuinely feel like i'm losing time!

pinterest also has a hold on me completely– and i desperately need to find an alternative to it (i'd delete it off of my phone if it wasn't part of my phone's widget aesthetics purely for my own viewing) because of the ads and ai that is ruining that whole app. any time i'm hypomanic or am wanting to curate my personal style more (or both), i go straight to pinterest and add hundreds of pins to a board at once. i'm just about to change my about me page's pinterest widget board to my newest mood board!

off my phone, i still am on my acnh kick and am trying to build a blog page for much longer posts on this website! hopefully that'll be up soon... and maybe i'll make a shrine page of some sort! who knows? :-)

week 2: thoughts on "analog" and trends

1/16/2026

i spent a lot of time gaming this week, particularly phasmophobia and the new acnh 3.0 update (which i talk a little about in today's breakfast entry). and i've been thinking quite a bit about the whole "analog" trend. i think it's a neat idea, however, i think a lot of people are just talking about going analog. you know, considering it's getting posted online nonstop. but maybe i'm wrong! i'd love to be wrong! and anyway, i like being off my phone but i also like gaming– regardless, pick and choose your battles. a lot of things are very much online and i don't think it hurts to be there in a way that feels good and is good for you!

also, there's nothing wrong with something useful becoming popular, but when things trend it usually means there's a need to buy buy buy all the things that come with the trend or people just want to partake in it because they don't want to feel left out. it's all very human, but not the capitalism shit. i dunno. for example, i love pop mart but when labubus started trending in america, it was kind of sad to see resellers take over and for people to not really care about their little trinket guys! just using them as a way to say "look at me, i have one." you know?

hmmm... outside of everything i've discussed here today, i forgot to talk about my week. but, this is all what's been on my mind this week... so i guess it's okay! maybe i should make a bigger blog than just these diary entries. that way i'll be able to write significantly longer posts! okay. i'll work on that this coming week! bye for now!

week 1: social media, screentime, and reconstruction

1/9/2026

this week was the first week i've spent off of social media (or at least through my phone)... minus pi.fyi and substack. which i think i'll be deleting from my phone sometime soon. it's going great, the way i knew it would. i deleted tiktok over a year and a half ago and then deleted instagram on and off for months at a time– so i knew this was going to be great for my mental health.

i do use some social medias on my laptop– like youtube, substack, and pi.fyi. i'd say letterboxd but i don't really use it or upload anything on it. i feel way more disciplined when i'm using my laptop because it doesn't feel so glued to my hands the way my phone seems to be. my phone screentime is finally at an all time low– 3 hours a day– and i'd love to keep it this way.

outside of my phone usage, i've been spending a lot of time coding this website AND i'm having so much fun! it makes me wish i had taken classes for web development or design in high school or university– which i guess i could technically do now. we'll see!

i've also been playing a lot of pokemon legends: z-a, reading essays on substack and everything i know about love by dolly alderton (which will be logged in my media log), and spending time on the phone or in person with loved ones. i feel like the brain rot is finally beginning to heal! my attention span is regaining strength, my dopamine levels aren't being destroyed by quick hits of short-form video content (hence the deletion of apps that have short-form video content– outside of the fact that social media is generally so isolating), and i feel all in all pretty good about life right now!